Caveats: My Age and My PTSD

Caveats: If my elderly age is a problem for you, please go away now.  If not, please use email or other communication services I have enabled on this site to submit your proposals for work proposals for which You want my help.

For your information and to see if you, a prospective work client or volunteer who wants to help me with “my web site work”, can cope with this information, please know that I also acquired PTSD during my childhood and teenage years living with my parents.  When “out of my parents home” “others”  made that “unknown” but mild PTSD condition so much worse in the mid 1970s; made worse from a variety of very traumatic abuses the nastiest of those attackers imposed on me in those years, none of which traumatic psychological results were treated then or have been adequately treated since.

Suffice for you to know that I remain highly functional most of the time.  Also know that if one or more of my PTSD triggers are “pulled” or “pushed” by you or a colleague, your “big clue” will be that I suddenly got very defensive verbally “for no apparent reason”.  That said, these are my ‘panic’ defense reactions to my misperceived threats one or your remarks made.  But most of my ‘panic’ reactions can be mild and short lived; yet not all of them are.

If I had the opportunity and could calm down fast after having a PTSD related panic attack, I’d advise a person who had just accidentally pulled or pushed a “trigger” to literally “back off” about 1-2+ steps, assuming we were talking face to face online or in-person.  Then I’d advise that person to stay calm yourself, remain concerned and caring, if you are, and calm down your self at your own pace and let me calm down at my own pace. In these passive ways that physical distancing gesture by you would allow me (actually to allow my suddenly alarmed subconscious mind) to feel safer, less threatened, and allow my conscious mind to start to  reassess if you or your ‘triggering’ remarks were really a threat or not.  Or I’d advise you to tell me with affection, concern and sincerity that you will “come back later” (if we had been talking via Skype or Zoom online or in person face-to-face) to resume our conversation.

However, my “calming down” process can take me many minutes or hours and after the worst panic attacks the process can take days.

Therefore if knowing just this little bit about my PTSD is a problem for you, perhaps an otherwise eager volunteer to help me with my “web site development and testing work” or for you, a potential client, who believe it could be a problem for you or your people in your organization who cannot deal with my PTSD ‘panic attacks’, should one happen, then please go away now.

This is as much time I am obliged to educate you or anyone else about PTSD or panic attacks.  Good luck learning more about them if and when you care to do so.

Like fine wine, this skilled woman gets better with age. Cheers!